Sober Story - Edem Snow
Hi I’m Edem from Long Beach, I’m an alcoholic and an addict.
My clean date (from coke) was 6.12.17 and my sober date was 10.29.17. As you can probably tell by the “was”, that’s not the case anymore. I made it to 1 Year 10 Days sober before my addiction got a hold on me again. I made it well over 18 months until I fell back into using coke. It’s not that my life is terrible, because honestly it’s not. It’s not that I don’t have support, I do. But it’s because I was slacking. I haven’t been to any meetings in over a year, I haven’t been reading, or doing any sort of recovery work. I got comfortable and made myself believe that I didn’t need anything to stay sober. I convinced myself of something I have warned other people about before.
A b s t i n e n c e is not S o b r i e t y. I have a hard time even saying I was sober for a year and ten days because towards the end, it felt like I was dry, not sober. I look at myself in the mirror and I see someone who has messed up, who wasted a year of their life. I am filled with regret and self hatred for falling victim of my own demons, once again. But I also see hope. I see a future. I see another year of sobriety ahead of me, if this time I choose to work for it. If I don’t give up, and if I keep on fighting. I know I can get better, I know I can recover. And I know that I can G R O W.